There are days when I may seem angry, or like I’m ignoring someone, but I’m literally too tired to talk. I can barely sit in office furniture let alone carry on a normal conversation. I wish I had more tips but I do have one piece of advice for fibromites. You have to let people help you. I hate accepting help. I want to do everything on my own. Independence is good, but I don’t need to push myself to the breaking point. It’s OK to accept help.

I was getting impatient & started thinking that it just wasn’t working. I vowed to myself that I was going to keep going with this experiment until I ran out of Mederma or experienced some weird side effect. I haven’t had any side effects but I was just discouraged. It just felt like I had been doing this forever. I knew that it would take up to 9 weeks to see results. It was eye opening to realize that it’s only been one week & I’m just impatient.

I almost had blogging down to a science. I would’ve used corporate performance management software had I known about it. I was sure that if I posted early in the morning I’d get more visitors. The problem was that I’m cranky in the morning. So I decided that the best time to blog was when I felt like it. The point of working from home was to be able to set my own hours. If I was focused on blogging for other people it took the fun out of it. It made blogging stressful. My posts were lacking. You can tell when a blogger isn’t having fun. So my tip is don’t blog angry. Don’t blog when you are tired. Don’t blog when you don’t want to blog.

I couldn’t read a book. I couldn’t watch tv. I couldn’t reason if there is an acne cure out there. I try to keep this blog as uplifting as possible. If I blogged about how my health was every day all the entries would read “I hurt. Fibro sucks” Usually I try to find solutions to brighten my day & make my life work. Today was just a bad day though. Sometimes they happen & the only solution is to keep going because it always gets better.

• Pretend that everything is five times louder than it actually is. Pretend that there isn’t any “background noise” & it is all just like fingernails scraping against a chalkboard. Try to eliminate as much of this as possible.
• Keep frozen meals in the freezer, or bring home dinner on days when fibromyalgia is bad.
• Listen.
• If at all possible, take care of the heavy cleaning like vacuuming & scrubbing the shower.

I know that it’s hard to live with a person with fibromyalgia but a little consideration will go a long ways.

Today, I feel great. I switched my home office up a bit so it’s more comfortable. It mostly has to do with the fact that I’ve been sleeping a little better. A few days ago I was able to wake up naturally instead of being woken up. It made such a big difference. I realized that I haven’t done that in over a year, but I don’t know how to recreate it because I need absolute quiet to sleep.

So my experiment this month will be to see if Mederma really helps reduce the appearance of my scars. I’ve tried several other remedies like Vitamin D, aloe, & several scar creams. I’ve even thought about travel insurance so I could get a tan. Mederma is quite expensive & I’m supposed to apply is 3-4 times a day. So I’ll probably just try this experiment until I use up the entire package & report back on the results.

Am I a writer?

Am I a writer: Drawing a blank

Am I a writer? The process

Am I a writer? When to call it quits

Am I a writer? Fibromyalgia kills creativity

Am I a writer? Turning the story around

Am I a writer recap

I dedicated myself to writing a novel in a month. I never said it would be a good novel. Overall, I found that fibromyalgia really effected this. I couldn’t sit at the desk & write for two hours a day. If I tried to push myself, my characters ended up acting really tired or cranky. For now, I am a blogger. Eventually I would like to write a book though I doubt I’ll ever try to publish it.